The Invincible Dream

I have a new type of feeling... Not exactly a new feeling, but I'm experiencing that after a long long time. And I'm in the same crossroad as I was a nearly a decade ago. The question was same, the characters were same, the situation was almost similar. Well, I say the word almost, because certainly there's a difference between being in a relationship and being engaged.

How much difference does it make in the bigger sense of things? Do I still regret my action last time? I'm not sure. I always believe that had life given us second chance, we would have lived life exactly the same way we are living now, because we always take the best decision based upon the available information. I know that now, because I'm taking absolutely the same decision I took at that time. Why I took that decision - because I was afraid. I was afraid that I might not be able to make her happy, and when I think about that again - I think the fear has been enhanced.

But, I dream that someday some miracle may take place, or some coincidence.
Please don't ask me to leave that dream. It's the dream that keeps me moving.
It's the invincible dream!!!

Tomake Bujhi Na Priyo from Projapoti Biskut (2017) - Lyrics

A beautiful song from a movie called Projapoti Biskut...
The link of the song is as follows:

Female version by Chandrani Banerjee --> Link
Male version by Prasen Mukherjee --> Link

This is not my translation. The translations have been done by Ritam Sen, the original lyricist.
His Youtube link --> https://www.youtube.com/user/ritam91

--------------------------------------------- তোমাকে বুঝিনা প্রিয় , বোঝো না তুমি আমায়
দূরত্ব বাড়ে, যোগাযোগ নিভে যায়।

Tomake Bujhina Priyo, Bojho na tumi aamay
Durotwo bare, Jogajog nibhe jaye

I do not comprehend you my love

You do not comprehend me.

Distance grows, correspondences cease.

গরাদ শোঁকে, সূর্যমুখী

খয়েরি কুঁড়ির ফুল, সূর্য খুঁজে বেড়ায়


Gorad shoke, Surjomukhi
Khoyeri Knuri-r ful, surjo khuje beraye

As a sunflower inhales the bars behind which,

Her brown bud blooms in the longing for the Sun.

তোমাকে জানিনা প্রিয়, জানোনা তুমি আমায়

শীতের বেড়াল খেলে ঘাসের ছায়ায়

Tomake janina priyo, jano na tumi aamay
Sheet-er beral khele ghasher chhaya-e

I do not know you my love,

You do not know me.

And winter like a cat emerges in the shadows of the green.

দুচোখে তার পান্নাবাহার

কান্না জমায়, কথায় কথায়।

Du-chokhe tar panna bahar

Kanna jomay, kothay kothay

Her eyes glow like emeralds

Made from frozen teardrops, brought by these cold words.

তোমাকে ডাকিনা প্রিয়, ডাকোনা তুমি আমায়

জলপ্রপাত মাতে রুপোর মায়ায়

Tomake dakina priyo, dako na tumi aamay

Jolpropat mate rupor maya-e

I do not call for you my love, you do not call for me

While the waterfall dazzles in its own silvery glee

তুলনাহীনা, জলের কিনার

তোমার চুলের মত আনমনে আঙুল ডোবায়।

Tulona-hina, joler kinar

Tomar chuler moto aanmone aangul dobaye

My metaphors fail to touch you, though this water

Flowing through my fingertips, reminds me the touch of your hair.

Happiness vs Sorrow

Do you know what is happiness, and what's sadness? Can you really define these easily? Or have you ever noticed the tinge of tears in your laughter, or the vice-versa - the happiness while you are crying? How about sharing all your wounds and pains with someone? Do you feel better? How about not having that someone in your life ever - because you are always acting too strong to make a mistake, because people look towards you as the epitome of strength, as the epitome of righteousness!

I have always been someone who can give good advice to people, not only good but also the correct advice to people. And, I also know what I should do in my life. Just that, I could never gather enough courage on that. And, somehow during some moments of madness, I did that... and it feels good.

They say that you can love only once in your life, and that's true.The thirteen years that have passed, yes we could have celebrated our thirteenth anniversary this year had things gone in the right way, yet I still have that similar connection to her even after these thirteen years. We are not in touch anymore, we haven't spoken over three years now, and it does not matter. All that matters is that I can think of her freely, without having any guilt conscious, and that's happiness.

I feel jealous of people who has a school time love story to share, who have a school time love story's success story to share - you know why? Because, I too have a school time love story, and it was much more awesome than anyone else's. Yet, I could share it none of my friends or colleagues. And, that's sadness.

Well, enough of meaningless talks. I know these make sense, just that again I am not able to open my heart out here. I do have my diary for that though. And, may be someday I will share the stories here as well. You will have a lot of stuff to judge me against, but, who cares! At last I have the freedom to dream about my loved ones.

Lyrics: Jaana zindagi se na jana

This is a song from the first album of Abhijeet Sawant.
Here is the youtube link of the song, I don't think there's any official video for this song.


Jaana, zindagi se na jana
Pyar ka yeh khazana
Loot na jaye kahin;

Beloved, don't go away from my life

The wealth of the love

Should not  be lost;

Jaana, hum rahenge tumhare
Hain jab tak sitare
Hain jab tak sangeet;

Beloved, I will always be yours

Till there are stars

and till there's music;

Duniya saari dekar lelu main ek tera pyar
Saathi ho jo tere jaisa kya kehna sansaar;

Jameen hain kya, jo tu kahe
Main chand pe tere saath chaloon;

I can leave the whole world just to get your love

For a friend like you, let the world say anything, who cares

What for the earth, if you say

I can come to the moon with you

Mere jeevan mein hain tere geeton ke jhankaar
Tere sang main angaaron par chalne ko taiyaar;

Tum dur ho to hazaar gham
Tum paas ho to mujhe har khushi;

My life is full of music and lyrics from your songs

I am ready to walk with you even on burning coals

When you are away, there're thousands pain

But, when you're with me, then I am ecstatic;

Jaana, zindagi se na jana
Pyar ka yeh khazana
Loot na jaye kahin;

Jaana, hum rahenge tumhare
Hain jab tak sitare
Hain jab tak sangeet;